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SUMMER ICARIAN ✦ FINAL FANTASY XIV (WoL OC)
RESIDENCE ✦ Residency
GEMBOND ✦ Ruby

"...ltros, what are you doing with that, put that down right now you little —"

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[voidgates]

Are you? Fragile.

[If anything, she sounds almost curious — her voice soft and almost thoughtful as she considers the idea before pivoting slightly to try to look up at him.]

Are you strong enough that if I leaned on you, it wouldn't crack you in return? It does none of us any good to put more than you can bear onto you when you're still sorting out how to be right with things as it is. Maybe it's just...

[She considers, chewing the corner of her lip.]

I know what Raha can take. I've seen the things he's endured for me. And I know what I can take, the things I've done. I...I don't know if I know where your limit is.

[She laughs softly under her breath.]

Likely it didn't help that perception, either, when you used to always remind us that you were different and not special. Mayhap I just turned that into..."shouldn't have to bear as much", in my head.

[basura_boi]

You've seen some of what I've endured as well. And for no cause but the dead and my own debt.

[ Though is that entirely true? He supposes what she has seen of him acting for the living ended with his death. It's probably not an argument in his favor, in that light.

So there's that long silence from him again, thinking it slowly through. In a way, the question of that difference in power is best exemplified by finding himself standing next to Estinien. He knows that in many circumstances, his presence is superfluous; he is nothing compared to the former Azure Dragoon. Yet emotionally... they seem to have a lot in common.

He's still figuring it out, what all of this mean in this strange place they've come together in. Being so different in some ways and similar enough in others. And much of that struggle for him, perhaps, is because it's been so long since he was part of a community that wasn't simply his work. ]

I don't know. I think...

[ Considering this all from a new angle in real time... ]

When I have trouble making choices sometimes, it's because there is a real choice and not just me walking away to be by myself, and I'm still learning how to do that. Because you and Raha have made it possible for there to be a choice other than that.

And...I fall apart because it's... not that I'm utterly broken and can't hold myself together any more. It's that you and Raha have made it safe for me not be all right and keep walking.

You deserve to have that as well. From both of your mates.

[voidgates]

...I want that, too.

[It feels like such a weighty thing to say, somehow. Not unlike the time it occurred to her to think about what she might want to do with her future, what possibilities might lie ahead of her beyond just saving the star as the Warrior of Light, and she'd realized that she could have one if she wanted — that some small sliver of her efforts to preserve the future for everyone else also meant preserving it for her, too.]

You might...need to remind me. More than once.

[She smiles softly.]

That the arms I have aren't just the ones attached. They're ones waiting to catch me, too.

[basura_boi]

[ He offers her a small but warm smile, leaning to kiss her softly on the corner of her mouth. ]

Think each one of use forgets more often than not and needs to be reminded, aye?

[ See: one Mr. G'raha Tia, infamous for his armless behavior. ]

I'll always catch you, love. I promise.