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SUMMER ICARIAN ✦ FINAL FANTASY XIV (WoL OC)
RESIDENCE ✦ Residency
GEMBOND ✦ Ruby

"...ltros, what are you doing with that, put that down right now you little —"

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[basura_boi]

i dunno, probably sat around and felt stupid and then given up on tryin to figure it out

shit that's really not what i meant sayin you're fun an so is raha and them
more like
if you're gonna go be at a party wouldn't it be better to have someone who enjoys parties and talks to people and the like
s why i didn't say estinien in that list aye
cause his idea of fun's the same as mine an that's goin fishin and not talkin to anyone while doin it
put either of us at a normal person fun thing an we're just gonna escape out the window of the nearest loo aren't we

so then why take me to a party thing when i don't like parties and i'm just gonna get a fuckin headache after half a bell and want to go home anyway cause that ain't fair to someone who wants to go do stuff if i'm just draggin em away from it????

fuck why am i so bad at talkin

[voidgates]

mmm
mayhap that's the crux of it then

you were asking lavai why they would take you to a party
and they were answering why

but you didn't really want to know why they would do that
that was never the question at all
because to you it was obvious why you wouldn't have fun at one

but it wasn't obvious to them

[basura_boi]

fuck

well...if i'm bein honest love
i also got no idea why they'd want to be around me at all but
i am tryin to get better at it not matterin if i don't understand shit like that and just... acceptin it

not sayin i'm any good at that but
m tryin
kind of like you told me with raha back before aye

...so should i send them a message to tell them that what i meant is i don't like parties?

an i should've just said no to that bit right off aye
didn't want to disappoint them and i ended up makin it a lot worse

[voidgates]

for now i think you ought to leave them alone

if you rush off to try to fix it while it's still fresh in your mind
there's a good chance you'll still be all tangled up in your thoughts and make things worse again

i think you should read your conversation with them again
learn the way they talk
look for the point when they went one way and you went another

and then after you've had some time to settle, try again

[basura_boi]

aye you're no doubt right
you normally are about stuff like this

i'll give it some time and try to figure where i got it all tangled up

(also i promise that when you n raha do your wedding i won't escape out the window of the loo)

(an i'll make sure estinien don't either)

[voidgates]

what is it that you don't like about the parties

just too many people about?
too loud?

[basura_boi]

too many people

too loud

probably that's what makes the headaches

and just

i've never like bein around many people even when i was a kit aye
scares the daylights out of me

mum said i was just fool shy and i'd grow out of it

didn't grow out of it