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SUMMER ICARIAN ✦ FINAL FANTASY XIV (WoL OC)
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GEMBOND ✦ Ruby

"...ltros, what are you doing with that, put that down right now you little —"

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[voidgates]

what did you think before then

tis a real question
genuine i mean

because when you say you're a nobody that means you think we're all somebodies
and you don't make being a nobody sound like a good thing

[basura_boi]

being a nobody kept me alive for ten years didn't it

trying to think how to explain this

if being "nobody" was bad, wouldn't it mean i should want to be "somebody"?

but that's the very last thing i want

i can see the caste(??? i don't think that's the right word) in places too. like haurchefant has told me about some things in ishgard. and i wouldn't want to be in the "important" caste that is nobles, i would rather be the not-nobles.

(in fact if anything after all i have seen... i think people having a lot of power is often the bad thing)

so i don't think it's bad to be a nobody person

... maybe there's a different word i should be useing?

[voidgates]

it sounds like you feel left out
when you say it the way you do i mean

it sounds like you're upset that we're all the somebodies
and you don't get to be one of us

[basura_boi]

sometimes i am left out because all of you can have conversations i don't understand but that is how it is

you and raha are very good about explaining things to me when i am being left out of a you and raha thing and you want to include me

but with the bigger group i think

i think it is complicated

mostly i would rather drift at the edges. it's an easy way to stay alone.

but sometimes

it isn't that i want to be a somebody

it's that i want everyone to stop pretending that i am and... see me
because i exist and i am different

which is strange because i don't like being seen and
i was always taught how dangerous that is

i don't know

i understand that you and i guess aymeric like pretending that you are nobodies because then you get to sit at the fire when you're also around nobodies

[voidgates]

what would that look like

the somebodies seeing you for being different
what would they say or do

[basura_boi]

i don't know

[voidgates]

mayhap the somebodies don't either

[basura_boi]

maybe there's not really a way

cause you're either in a group or not i suppose

i know... you've told me you've had your times feeling like you didn't belong in places

what ended up making you feel like you belonged when you did find it and was it cause you were the same as everyone or cause they saw you being different